Chapter ( 9 )

- what is the end of this story? Said Fathia .

- don’t speak like that , don’t you love me ?

- I do , It’s a strange sort of love , I want to forget you , but I can’t I know you love other women , but I don’t care . I know there is no hope . there are a lot of people who want to marry me . I want your permission . I want to settle down . I don’t like to be a swing from one man to another. I don’t want people to snatch my body , meanwhile I don’t want to hurt you . I don’t want you to be angry . I wish I didn’t see you . I wish I didn’t know you .

- O k . I’m going away .

- don’t go , please come back . she threw herself on my leg begging me to stay , but I didn’t listen to her supplication . I went home . I swore I wouldn’t come to her again . I decided to forget her , but the decision isn’t easy . of course , I won’t desert her . I know my impression . I feel pleasant with this dominating power on her . do I have self-deficiency ? I think this feeling of power and the humiliation I see in her eyes gives men sexual sensation . Is this why I go to her ? this extension of sexuality gives me satisfaction . does this make up for my oppression . man is so strange . I can’t interpret the psychology of human beings . we are what we were drawn up for , If I love Fathia, let it be so , If I love Leila let it be so .

I will call to Leila . I’ll tell her I need to talk to her . she isn’t a reserve , man needs more than a woman , may be she is my real love , she never says bad words , she is very polite , I’m her weak point . the woman for me is like the mother for the baby . men are always babies , my ability to love is endless . I always want to love and be loved ; bottomless stream of passion , a non – stop current of emotions .

We were behind the third pyramid , far away from intruders and vice squad . we were alone under the sun . she had to buy a hat to protect her complexion . we had sandwiches and cans of Pepsi , we talked in every thing. She told me she had a brother of hers , working in the neighborhood, he might see her.

The pyramids were built for the burial of the pharaohs , the grandeur of the place ; while we are lovers , came here to hide our love .

Her eyes began to be anguish and ferocious . I know when she feels like having sex . I told her it was her turn to suck my finger since I licked hers in Sharm El Sheikh . she said it was ; like a little branch of tree , where the veins are apparent , I felt sweet , it is better than making love . she forgot the heat of the sun and I forgot myself . there was a tree nearby . I told her to sit under the shade of the tree ,

I put my jacket on the ground .she slept raising her thighs , I put them on my shoulders. I took off her underwear . I pierced my male sex in hers for two hours . we addict each other . sexual intercourse is a part of the process of love . the adaptation of the passion between man and woman is the true sound love .

I asked her to turn and put her head down on the ground and raise her giant hunches , leaning her legs and hands down , so her dome appeared to me . I clinched slowly my male sex in hers , she was to and fro , scratching my iron bar as if sharpening it , saying” harder and harder, again and again “ ” how nice , how beautiful” it was continuation of happiness , refreshment and blessing .

We have life and death parallel together . as long as we live , we love , then we die . the Ancient Egyptians honored death . they believed in the life after death, but surely there was love , because love is born with man and woman . love joins man and woman to reproduce life . when you sit with your girl friend time passes fast . Love mollifies the hardships and frustration of life . I didn’t want the time to pass , I wanted the time to stop ; me and Leila . we don’t feel the heat of the sun . we look at the desert around us like an oasis full of streams and trees . Do we love only to escape from the achievements we can’t make?.

Leila knows she isn’t the only woman I date . she knows my faults ; that I’m selfish ; woman is my addiction ; woman is the lubricant oil of life . I don’t believe in the abstract pleasure such as music or art very much . I want to touch , to see to taste my concrete pleasure , besides , woman is the most enjoyable creature on earth .

If I sit with Leila , I don’t need anything else . sometimes I kick her in her legs , she said ,

- do you play football ?

sometimes I burn her fingers with matches , she said ,

- when the brown spot disappears by the course of time , I feel sorry because the burn reminds me of you .

some times I cause her some blue spots on her body when I pinch her thighs .

- as long as these spots on me I feel happy , when they are gone I feel disappointed , she said .

- look at these clouds in the sky , said I.

- what about them ?

- they must go away , so , our love will go too .

- try me , I’ll never ever forget you , may be you will do .

- may be I’ll love another woman .

- whatever you love , It’s something inhabits me .

- many women inhabit me .

- it’s your business , at least you are honest .

- meaning ?

- I mean you are not a liar .

- I never was, I said assuringly .

- a part of you is enough , one hour is like one day is like one flower, is like one hug , is like one kiss . there was truth sincerity and heat , her voice is strong, soft and accurate all in one , really I enjoy her voice , I put my tongue in her mouth . I swallowed her saliva , it is like honey with cream . I inhaled her breath , it is like jasmine . we were standing up for saying good bye , but I didn’t waste time . I let her underwear down , I let my male sex in her den, I felt heat inside ; tight , soft , buttery and juicy .

- Can I leave now ? I asked , just to tease her .

- leave if you can , nobody stops you

- I can’t .

- what do you want ?

- I want to live in your nest all my life.

- what will you do if you grow older ?

- I would just look at you .

- I’d be happy to be looked at .

- you speak poetry .

- my poetry is lousy comparing to yours , I say what in my heart .

- I know what in your heart , we say the same words in the same time . there is an application in our thoughts and dreams .

- the application is clear now , when will you push ?

- after a while.

- do as you like .